i fear the future.
i fear the not knowing.
i worry, almost with every breath i take.
it’s probably something i chose to do, long before i was me, long before i started this lifetime. i know i have the power to stop myself from worrying, but maybe i don’t want to. maybe worrying keeps me going, even if it’s uncomfortable for myself.
something is worrying me right now, i mean even more than usual. i’m scared, nervous, and yet i know, i chose this.
at the same time, i keep on going forward. i may shiver in my shoes, but i keep my legs walking. time will only lead me forward, and there’s no other way than to face my fears, but that’s okay.
it’s okay to be scared, i say to myself. it’s okay, because it keeps me going. it makes me want to face my fear, face it now, the sooner the better. and when i get through it, most of the time i would look back and say, hey… that wasn’t so bad after all.
and after that? it’s time to find a new worry. 🙂
(for the acoustic version, please click here.)
Wear It Like A Crown – Rebekka Karijord
I don´t know where this fear came from
how I became so afraid of losing everyone
never been afraid of being lonely
now I´m becoming the one I´m most scared of being
I don´t know where this fear comes from
this fear of failing fear of letting everyone and myself down
its growing deep into my soul
making me all paralyzed and cold
It´s two steps forward, three steps back again
I´ll turn my face against it I won´t run
Courage and belief are my redeems
No one else can rescue me it seems
Cause if I don´t follow my heart this time
I´m gonna forget what this life is all about
I´m gonna take that path I´m going in on my own
I´m gonna take that fear and wear it like a crown
PS: i did not make the video/music, just borrowed it for personal use, and share it with the rest of you.